Chasing my Doubts Away

"I spent a long time trying to come to grips with my doubts, when suddenly I realized I had better come to grips with what I believe. I have since moved from the agony of questions that I cannot answer, to the reality of answers that I cannot escape...and it's a great relief."

Tom Skinner

This is where I have been for awhile. I've been struggling and have felt so distant. I recently took up a practice that always renews my spiritual life...claiming what is true about God. Natala has recently inspired me with this http://heretogoal.blogspot.com/2005/05/my-fear-my-faith-and-who-my-god-is.html#comments

I find that I read other people's thoughts and it raises many questions for me. Now don't get me wrong-I don't question my faith or God's love and care. It's more the practices or doctrinal debates that are taking place so much now. I am not by nature a deep philosophical thinker and sometimes I feel as if I "should be " addressing deep thoughts that others have. What I am realizing is that God has created me a certain way and he needs me to reflect him that way. Not everyone is supposed to be serious and philosophical. Also, not everyone is supposed to be such a goof ball like me! Most of my friends are very organized serious types who always know where their kids' shoes are and have the perfect scripture references to fit life's occasions. Now I know as well as you do that they don't really have it all together but they certainly give that appearance. I love the orderliness they bring to me and the ways that they encourage me. Several of them have said to me that I am in their lives to lighten them up! Ha Ha!

So all of this to say that I am refocusing! I am grabbing on to the TRUTH and allowing it to set me free. I am taking captive every thought and making it obedient to Christ (man, is that hard work!). I am being renewed by the transforming of my mind-you should try it sometime! And last but not least I am reveling in the way God created me; fun-loving, silly, gregarious, scattered, creative, passionate, encouraging....you get the picture.

Hmmmm,....seems like it's a little too quiet here. This may be a good day for a water balloon fight with the kiddos!

Have a great day!